Appt Update

The appointment went really well. If anyone remembers, at this point last FET my lining was only 6mm, well....it was 8.5 on Tuesday. I am so happy about that. Last transfer my lining ended up only getting to 7.5, so I am just thrilled that it is 8.5 now. The Dr said it looked "perfect". I started progesterone yesterday, and our transfer will be on Tuesday afternoon. 

Worst blogger award goes to.......ME

Sorry guys, I have been a crappy blogger these days. I have an ultrasound appt on Tuesday to check my lining, and if all goes well, transfer on the 3rd. Im just not as into it this time. I just don't feel the excitement, like I did before.  I had my hopes so high for our last FET, that it hurt so bad, if I don't get excited, maybe it wont hurt so much. I did everything last time, acupuncture, special foods, 2 days of bedrest. This time I am not doing any of that. I am not going to let my life be controlled by infertility anymore. It's hard to explain how I feel these days, Im not longer saddened by peoples pregnancies, or their babies, I am no longer jealous,  I no longer secretly wish all pregnant woman would go away...LOL Im hopeful for the future, but no longer disappointed with  right now.  Im just taking everything one day at a time. Last FET, it was all I could talk about. Everyone in my real/online life knew down to the second what was happening. This time is just different, I've kept it to myself for the most part, and I kinda like it better that way, no pressure. I still do have those few friends who ask, and I am happy to talk about it, but for the most part I keep it between me, Kyle and my mom.

Ill try to be better at blogging from now on. I follow a few blogs who should win awards for best bloggers ever....LOL Ill update Tuesday after my appt......Prayers for a thick lining would be appreciated.

Im Baaaaaack!!

Sorry I have been gone for so long. I just wanted to post and let everyone know our first FET didn't work. We will do another one in July. I wasn't as disappointed as I though I would be, I actually cried very little. I guess after over 4 years I have just come to expect a negative result. FET wasn't a bad experience, so I am ok doing it again. We planned a trip to Mexico in October, so I am really excited for that. We have a very busy summer coming up, so time should go by fast.

A day dedicted to FET

We got to Portland last night, and had a really great night together. We went for dinner, had a couple drinks, laughed, and just enjoyed each others company. I didn't sleep well last night, I was wide awake at 4:00am, nauseous and scared. I we super nervous that my lining wasn't going to be thick enough. We go to our appt early, and were brought right back for our ultrasound. I closed m eyes, I didn't want to watch, I was afraid it wasn't going to be thick and we would be turned away. All my fears were laid to rest, when he told me it was 7.5mm and perfect. Apparently it was only 6.5mm last time, so he was happy with this. He said that if he turned away every couple who had a 7.5mm lining, there would be a lot fewer babies in the world, and for me, that was a normal lining and perfect. I think I shed a tear of happiness that we had overcome this hurdle. We were to leave and come back at noon for the acupuncture portion of the day and transfer would be at 1:00. I was instructed to drink 4 glasses of water, pee at 11:00am and hold from the on. Our office is on the water front, so we left and strolled by the water, had breakfast....then an ice cream cone.....LOL We walked on the dock, and check out the Dragon boats, which Kyle has never seen, and I thought was only a Canadain thing. I pee'd at 11:00 and I swear 5 minutes later had to go again, but wasn't allowed. We made our way back to the Dr, and I was brought back to start acupuncture, it was really nice and relaxing. At this point all I could really think about was how my embies were doing. After the acupuncture, I switched rooms and the Dr came in. The embryologist needed a few mins so we used that time to ask the Dr all of our question. First question was about our embryos. All 18 froze and grade AA, and when they thawed the 2 they said one was grade 1 and one was grade 2. I heard him say grade 2 and started to panic. He assured me that it was only because some of the cells had died, and it was still a good quality embryo and I shouldn't worry, many babies come out of grade 2 embryos. It was then time for the transfer, and boy did I have to pee. He layed me back and had his nurse hold the ultrasound machine on my stomach He laughed at me because my bladder was SUPER full, and told me I was a good patient and listened well.....LOL He showed my the catheter that held the embryos and went to work. It took maybe 5 mins from the time he started until the time he was done. I felt no pain, and was actually a very pleasant experience. I layed there for 10 mins, the acupuncturist came in, I laid there for another 20 mins, and then was allowed to get up.....I got dressed as fast as I ever have and dashed to the bathroom, I think I pee'd for 5 minutes.....LOL. After that, we were free to go. We headed back to the hotel and took an almost 4 hour nap. I took some pics of the day, here they are.

FET day breakfast

There is nothing wrong with ice cream at 10:00am......Right??

The best pic we could get of us. Were are just outside our RE's office.

Our Babies. The top one is the Grade 1 and the bottom is the Grade 2. So beautiful.

Some of the acupuncture needles, I had plenty more than this. These ear ones were pretty sensitive.

FET toes!!!!!!

Our midnight snack, FET day over, I think we deserved this.

It feels good to have this part over, I so much looking forward to whats to come.

Appt update

So I had my ultrasound yesterday to determine if my lining was thick enough for our transfer on Tuesday. It was NOT thick enough. It was just under 7mm, and the DR wants it between 8 and 11. So the new plan is to up my estrogen to 3 pills in the morning and 3 pills in the evening, 2 pills are to be taken orally and 1 pill is to be inserted in the vaginally. He is also having me start taking a low dose aspirin every day. I will continue with 3x750mg metformin and pre natals. I will do all this for 6 days, and on Thursday the 26th I will start progesterone and we will transfer on the 30th. I was disappointed, but when I really though about it, it was only 6 extra days, and really whats 6 more days when you've been trying for 4 years. So on the 30th I will head down to my RE for a 9:30 ultrasound and if all looks well we will thaw the embryos and transfer a few hours later.

Not so anonymous anymore.

When I first started this blog, I want to do it anonymously. I wanted people to feel connected to me and my story, but I wasn't ready to show my face. I have been reading a lot of blogs lately, and I have come to realize that I am more drawn and feel more connected to the ones that have pictures of the couple. I brought it up to Kyle and he thought it was a good idea to post a few. You all have to know this about me, I am a wild crazy picture taker...LOL I take pictures of everything, and not just one or two, I take 100 or more pictures and any given event. So it was hard for me to just pick just one pic to share....so I picked 5...and even that was hard....LOL So with our further adieu.....US.

Taken this past Christmas

Camping last summer

At a Vancouver Canucks game a few months ago.

Taken a couple years ago by my sister in law

 

 

Also taken by my sister in law

                          So thats us, well thats a very very very small peek into our lives.

I have my ultrasound on friday, and I am excited, but also pretty nervous. I have had lining issues in the past, so I hope my body is doing what it is supposed to. Who knows, by this time next week I could.....will...be pregnant. ;)

So close...so so so close

Next friday I have my ultrasound to make sure everything is where it needs to be and I am hoping for a nice thick lining. As long as everything is good I will start progesterone and the transfer will be on the 24th. I feel super lazy this cycle....not with my daily life, but with my med routine. No needles, no ohss, no monitoring...it all just seems to easy. Im sorry the blog has been so uneventful, I just have nothing exciting to post...yet.